Early days

Part I
Sometime in July 1955 shortly after I finished High School I found myself alone and horny in an empty house. Parents and sister momentarily gone. Afternoon light streaming in through the bathroom window of our new midwest tract home. Masturbating in the bathroom seemed less messy than cleaning up afterwards in my room. But as I faced the mirror and the washbowl my eyes caught a glimpse of a plastic hairbrush on the stand. Memories of early childhood discipline in another country surfaced quickly. We were a good family with the usual small problems, life went smoothly most of the time. But discipline was sometimes necessary. It was always meted out immediately, in anger and, if necessary, harshly, with a short but hard hand spanking. The spanking came from either mother or father, whoever was closer and angrier, and was delivered fully clothed while we struggled to get our rears as close to the ground as possible to avoid the punishment. Then came the time in the corner, after that the scolding. There was no premeditation in the physical punishment. You were warned, if you did it anyway you got spanked. But the warning threats stayed in the young and impressionable mind. Not "I'm gonna tar your hide!" or "when I'm done you won't be able to sit down for a week!" but (translated) "I'm going to make your ass as red as a tomato!"... The translucent pink brush tickled my mind. What would it be like... feel like... look like? I took off all I had on - my shorts - grabbed the brush and turning to look back at the mirror tried a few swats. Too soft... too hard... reaching my left cheek not as hard as I thought... digging in underneath felt good... hey, this is fun...and as I kept going, the realization that the longer I spanked the harder I could hit for the same sting level. It was a very fine afternoon indeed. Very red, very hot cheeks. Very stinging but not very painful. New sensations sitting down on swollen buns. I did that one more time that summer, alone in the woods with part of a dead branch, nothing else smooth at hand. Not satisfying, the feel of a flat surface was gone. Sitting on a hot rock surface afterward sort of made up for it.

Part II
College, married student housing, a child and a new job postponed the next spanking for almost 8 years. By then I had some woodworking tools and started experimenting with paddles and trying to get my wife to accept this facet of my personality and perhaps lend a helping hand. It took a while. She would spank me very well, then recoil from me for several days. Slowly the interaction improved. In those early days she gave me several memorable spankings using a small plastic hairbrush while I lay prone and she knelt astride my upper back so her strokes were very evenly distributed. One of those resulted in cheeks so swollen that we have not matched them yet. Perhaps on the next one. Lately she has grown to like it more and more and will sometimes nudge me towards the next spanking. She favors lighter hairbrushes and paddles that she can move faster and with more control. I have made a variety of paddles from hardwoods: like padouk, rosewood, purpleheart, oak... softwoods: like pine and also from polycarbonate (Lexan). During the warmup I want to spare my shoulder so I use heavier hairbrushes/paddles with a lot of wrist action. My forearm tightens a lot but afterwards I do not get aches in my right shoulder. Oh, to be ambidextrous! The typical spanking now starts with my warming up for 8-10 minutes with a hairbrush or two (4 to 5 rounds of about 100 strokes - about 1 minute each round with short rests in between). During the warmup we alternate my spanking standing up with some good swats using a long light paddle in a well bent over position. Then I switch to 14" paddles, slow the pace and get to where I am hitting very hard with a swing of about 20 inches (another 100 to 150 strokes). At that point my wife takes the next 100 to 150 strokes starting with wide paddles and narrowing down to bars or rods always alternating some to the bent over position with the light paddle. She is shorter but very strong and because of position and arm swing her strokes are much stronger than mine. We start 1 or 2 strokes at a time,at maximum strength, and build up to volleys of 8-12 strokes, at maximum strength. Then I go back to self spanking, at my maximum strength, until my buns and my arm tell me to stop (another 50 to 100 strokes). I look forward to the next one in about 6-8 weeks. When my wife spanks me we have learned to go in the direction of high velocity rather than weight, at least until the cheeks have swelled significantly. Heavy paddles without enough warmup or in bent over positions can lead to bruised bones. It has been a good 42 years of spanking (by myself, by my wife and also commercially in the distant past) and I only get spanked when I am good.

Part III
The attraction of a red bottom, mine or anybody else's remains as high as ever. It may be a genetic memory of times when females had an estrus; their buns still blush when deeply aroused. The attraction of a rosy female bottom aroused and eager runs deep. And if the lady should wish to have them in a deeper shade of red, who could say no? It may be the refusal to think of any part of my body as ugly; "butt-ugly" not spoken here. It is the affirmation that play is good for adults and this is how I play. Being spanked appears to express atonement for old guilt, or perhaps it is a way of defusing what was once a very bad experience and turning it into play. It seemed so sometimes, early times, but after a reasonable cleaning of the psychological attic, it remains a focus of attention and fun that does not seem to be related to anything else. When I start the first warmup round I have yet to feel anything but the urge to get very red and swollen once again. Spanking appears to say that pain is enjoyable. But there is a big difference between sting and pain. For me, in this context, pain is that level of nerve firing that triggers a definite urge to fight back. The late stages of our typical spankings on a cold bottom would indeed be very painful. On a well warmed bottom, however, we balance at the limit between sting and pain until the cheeks are seriously swollen, thoroughly and evenly red and perhaps even show a little blood at a few pores. This last is a small bother, but worth mentioning because it does upset some spankers. The burning feeling in well spanked cheeks and the brain chemistry that goes with it ( endorphins, etc.) are definitely pleasurable and worth the sting level needed to get there. Spanking play can be an absolute turn on. Having a good set of fingernails lightly rake well reddened buns can a result in something very close to non sexual orgasm. Maximally intense. Best in the middle stages of our typical spanking. It can take a while to refocus on the spanking again. Spanking has little or nothing to do with sex. It does have to do with our "naked persona" which is offensive to some people and with "adult play" which is also offensive to some people. Which are problems in mental freedom, but not ours. I do not get an erection from being spanked, although the next morning we usually have good sex because the previous night was exciting. Getting "ridge shadows" on both sides of the crack from lengthy sessions with a wide paddle is a treasured experience. So is squeezing one's own swollen buns after a good volley...as well as spanking one's own cheeks to the limits of strength, giving and receiving the best strokes at the same time and mentally switching from giver to receiver a split second after contact.. So is the feeling of sitting on "platform buns" the morning after on the edge of the bed. So is videotaping good closeup views of the spanking to enjoy it again many times afterwards. So is thanking my wife many times for a wonderful time. Heavy spanking. Exciting, yes. Naked, yes. Fun, yes. Sensual, yes. Sexy... not during the spanking anyway. It really is its own thing.

Part IV
Biggest Influences:
1. Nu-West. In the mid 80's they sent me a tracing of the shape of the hairbrush that Ed used on Michelle in "Out of the Closet" - great lady, most awfully uneven spanking ever. "Stephanie Locke - School Mistress" was impressive. Through their videos I learned that other spankers were reaching sting levels I thought impossible in the late 70's. Good learning particularly in some of the early videos. Too punitive. The reality of how bad it could be instead of how fun it could be. I get my kicks from sham pain?
2.Thrashers' Ball group who deserve praise for a very open, refreshing look at CP.One could wish for slightly fewer canes and more and better paddles while they are having such fun times.
3.Redman@cris.com (C-Red) for a very good survey. Good to know that there are many others with similar tastes. I look forward to any similar and improved surveys.

Favorite Positions:
1.standing up: because it presents the most padding over the bones to be safe with the heavier paddles, bars and rods. Bruised bones are no fun.
2.well bent over: almost hands on ankles for my best Veryholey light paddle.
3.horizontal: face down with my wife astride my shoulders and a good light hairbrush.

Best Paddles:
Veriholey: one side with small holes like a Nu-West Truro paddle, the other with 1/2" to 5/8" holes counterbored to half the thickness (approximately 1/4" deep). On first contact the area is small, closer to a cane. I leave the edges of the holes sharp. Feel them first on well warmed buns before you round them, I bet you will leave them sharp too. I have
one Nu-West hairbrush (12",1/2"thick,~6oz.),
one 14 inch flyswatter-type paddle (14",1/2"thick,7 oz.) and
one lightweigth long paddle (18",1/4"thick,5.8oz.) made this way from polycarbonate. They prompt the following limerick:

Said once an old spanker named Bruno
Cane, paddle and hairbrush I do know
of rosewood so fine,
of maple divine,
But of Lexan they're numero uno.

However, if you start to use the large hole side of the Veriholeys very early in the session, you will get "leakage" before you get to maximum swelling. It sounds ominous but it is easy and fun to go very far with these.

Best New Toys:
bars (square - a rod would be round) made of light pine 1/2" to 3/4" square and 22-26" long. Sting, sound and control beyond any cane. If that leaves you hungry for more, try 3/8" and 1/2" square polycarbonate and make them a little shorter.

Disappointments: taking 2 enteric aspirin 3 hours before a spanking and getting only slightly pink no matter how hard we spanked. It's funny now.

Turnoffs: getting spanked hard on a cold bare bottom beyond my control (an almost real spanking - it just hurts). Also, positions and implements that lead to bruised bones. Those hurt and stay hurting for a long time.

Curiosity: are there female self-spankers/spankees that go as far? how did they grow into it? what are their experiences? It has been almost 3 months since my last spanking. The center of my cheeks is tender once again. We should have a good time this weekend.

red.red ~1997